Post Lunch Post Monday

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It's just another Monday, kan? You know, the kind where you have to physically drag yourself out of bed and into the office, even after taking a nice one-week break last month. Rasa macam tak cukup cuti *nangis 😭
To be totally honest, something heavy happened a few months back. It was a bit traumatizing, but honestly, it’s no big deal now. I’m fine, I promise. I guess I’ve become an expert at stuffing, suppressing down all the negativity until I can’t feel it anymore. Just kidding (mostly!)

But lately, this feeling of slogging myself to work? It’s hitting a level that feels way higher than normal. Sometimes I genuinely wonder if this is my own little way of self-sabotaging my career. I really don't know the answer

The thought of taking a 2 or 3 month unpaid leave just to completely focus on myself keeps popping up. But I’m worried it’ll raise a huge "red flag" 🚩 since I haven’t even been working here for a full year yet. Lagipun sini susah dapat cuti. Every job has its good and bad sides, but I've got to be real: the whole vibe and culture around here could use a serious makeover. So, I'll just keep waiting and see how things go, rasanyalah

Am I slowly turning into Gen Z? Micro retirement, anyone

Lunch: Sushi King 🍣

This was definitely not the plan. I’d been feeling so sleepy since morning. So, instead of staying put at the office, I impulsively drive out during lunch and headed straight to the nearby Sushi King

I thought, "A Miso soup would be nice and light." Nope. That tiny thought spiraled, and I ended up ordering a whole bento set AND four plates of sushi. And yes, I finished every single bit of it by myself. Now? I feel absolutely sick, like I'm going to throw up 🤢 everything

Weight Gain
To be fair, I usually don't eat a lot. My routine is typically just coffee/tea in the morning, Nasi Ayam Penyet for lunch (literally every single day because the office food is bland and I’m too lazy to go out) or else I just skip lunch and have a nap. Plus I barely eat dinner. 
Tak tahu mana silapnya, over the past 10 months, I’ve gained so much weight. Please don't even get me started on exercise. I want to brisk walk in the evenings, but I don't have a walking buddy. I’ve tried walking around the neighborhood alone, tapi entahlah, rasa sunyi pulak tetiba, and I prefer going to sleep really, really early these days. (Read: suppressing everything)
The New Plan: GM Diet Starts Tomorrow! 🍎
Okay, I'm planning to kick off the GM Diet tomorrow. No more procrastination. I read somewhere that the formula to lose weight is about 80% diet and 20% exercise

So, balik kerja ni, I'm making a mandatory stop at the fruit store near my house to get all the supplies. Semoga istiqamah, kepada diri sendiri

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