This Is Really Hard For Me To Write But Here Are 5 Lessons That I Learned In 2018

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One of the reasons I never write something personal for this blog because I scared that people might twist what I'm writing and misinterpret of what I'm going to say. But as a whole, I am a really private person, I rarely share anything in-depth about my family, friends, and work.


I still feel like 24-years old. Photo by Aqalili AzizanNow, here I am writing based on feedback from two good friends of mine and the topic is career ups and down and I learned from it.
Back to history...After I graduated around 2017, I decided to get some rest and do my own things like this blog, video shooting and editing. Basically, freelancing. 
When the time is up (8 months to be exact), I decided to look out for a job.
After several interviews, I got my first full-time job at a startup company and it was my dream job (content marketing in travel and food industry). 
The first lesson that I learned from here is to... Pick up some skills even by yourself.At that time, video and writing industry is blooming and I would say it's a very demanding skill set. So, I was fortunate enough to learned video shooting, editing, social media management, designing and writing from my studies day. 
8 month goes by, I jumped and followed my boss where they came out with a new beauty platform. 
This is where things get a bit bumpy...
Second, don't keep everything to yourself. Seek help.I was trying to be a tough girl (at that time I'm still a child). So, I hold on to myself most of the part that I'm hurting. I act like I'm okay but truthfully I'm not. I will say bad words to cover up my emotions, I become rude as a person. That's the character that I play in front of people. But, when I'm alone, I cried, I blame myself, questions myself am I good enough and that's when I know I need some help.
I talked to my parents, fiancee and a best friend of mine about this. After I let it all out, I felt relieved. They are the reason why I keep moving forward and taught me if I did something wrong, apologize. If I did something right, fight for that justice.
We still have a long way to go, my dear self. Photo by Aqalili AzizanThird, let go of your ego.This rule applies when you made a mistake. Simple. To be honest, I am a stubborn girl and before I'm 25 years old, it was hard for me to even admit my mistakes. I guess work makes me matured and I try so hard not to repeat the same mistakes that I shouldn't. As a human, sometimes, I do forget. 
After 4 months, something happened and the company closed down. 
I have a lot of commitment at that time and I need a job that I love and I need it faster. Pronto. Clearly, back to square one and I realised at that time, why not I venture into a professional industry because I clearly need to learn from experiences person/company in writing. 
After 4-5 interviews, I got a job!
Fourth, don't ever give up in your life.Yeah, a bit cheesy but by not giving up you are one step ahead of your dream. It's going to be a bumpy ride, like usual but that is a journey that you live for. I don't think I'm a perfect writer yet because I still have a lotttttt to learned and improved my worst enemy, grammar. 
Fifth, know your passion and dream.I'm a type of person that pushed myself really hard until I explode.
Becoming a great writer is one of my main dreams (I REALLY MEAN IT) and without that dream or passion to keep on learning, I would not be able to do it. My advice is to take your time. I know that we are running out of time but at least we must make a best out of it.
============I'm Aqalili Azizan, 25 years old crybaby and this is 5 things that I learned during my career journey in 2018. I do admit that I made some mistakes and it's time to move on and let it all go. 2019 Kaja! 
By the way, I would love to hear your story too so don't forget to share as 'anonymous' on the comment down below! 
Fly high and achieve what you want! Photo by Aqalili Azizan
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