Things That Make My Heart Beats A Little Faster

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I used to listen to this Salawat as it reminds me of very fond memories back then. I remember that the feeling was honest and sincere. Listening to the Salawat now, somehow it makes my heart beats faster.

I used to pray that if something is good for me, He will let me have it. If it costs me my religion, I would rather lose it, while waiting for the Day to come where all His promises come true to the eyes of the Believers. A thousand pains in this world are nothing to me compared to the reward of eternal life in His beautiful Jannah, where sadness does not exist. And I really meant it back then when I convey my feelings to Him in the darkest nights.

All this while, He has been giving me all that I wished for, even most of the prayers I have made were mostly forgotten. Yet He remembers everything. At times when I was so fragile in remembering Him and the akhirah, He came with a beautiful solution to keep me in check of my sincere wishes back then. That is why, no matter how hard my life becomes as people may have forgotten what they have done to me, He is the only One who never leaves me alone. And I am strong because I have a strong and loving God to back me up all the time.

Somewhere around last month, I remembered clearly when I manage to find time to speak to Him silently that I missed the moments talking to Him about everything that has happened in my life. It is true, sometimes the difficulties in life that you have endured by putting all your hopes to Him is the sweetest memories in life. The happiness I felt inside was just indescribable. I said to Him that I'd really want to go back to how I used to feel for Him, and He granted my wish out of the blue.

I just wished for prayers from those who know me well enough so that you can remember me in your du'a, sincerely. The thing is, nothing in this world can beat my love for Him. And my life has once again returned to normal without me worrying about how I should say no to certain things which makes me in doubt of my choice.

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