Tadabbur The 1st Page Of Al Fath And Private Murottal Lesson

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Actually after Maghrib prayer today, I asked Allah about something and I said to Him that I know He is listening to me, but I need some answers. Then I remember Nouman Ali Khan mentions in one of his sharing, that is if you want Allah to talk to you personally, read the Quran, study the Quran. (link to the video  - Click Here). This video here is one of my favourites that I definitely shed some tears listening to even after so many times, love it so much.
So, I open the Quran with the intention of getting His answer, but I just don't know which page I should be reading. Then after some time, my eyes caught surah al-Fath. Since it is the name of one of my dear friend, so I decided to recite the 1st page,  followed by reading the page's translation in Malay like I always do, page by page.
After reciting the first page of Surah al-Fath, when I started to read the Malay translation of the first verse of the Surah, I was stopped. 
Allah mentions, 
Sesungguhnya Kami telah membuka bagi perjuanganmu satu jalan kemenangan yang jelas nyata.
 The second verse, He mentioned,
Kemenangan yang dengan sebabnya Allah mengampunkan salah dan silapmu yang telah lalu dan yang terkemudian, dan menyempurnakan nikmatNya kepadamu, serta menambahkanmu hidayah ke jalan yang lurus.
The third verse, I just couldn't hold my tears anymore when He said,
Dan dengan sebabnya Allah memberikanmu pertolongan (untuk mencapai kejayaan) dengan sepenuh-penuh dan sehandal-handal pertolongan (yang tidak ada bandingannya).
And it continues until the 9th verse, which is the last ayaat on the 1st page of Surah al-Fath.
......It was just unutterable, reading and pondering about these ayaats. I had mixed feelings, I felt a huge relief, with an indescribable kind of happiness and contentedness knowing that He answers me that fast. I knew, and I believe that He sympathize me more than any other person can do when I asked Him earlier after the solah.
For Him to tell me that this struggle I am in is the path to victory, and with it, He forgave my sins, not just from the past, but also the future ='( I was totally touched by His love, truly ar-Rahman, ar-Rahim.
And He mentions that I do not have to worry that He is indeed helping me with the best of help which is incomparable to any other kind of help that I can ever receive.
So I continue to digest the following verse until the 9th, and no words can describe how I was touched by His words of encouragement tonight, it is indeed, an Amazing Day for me. ='(
Usually after this kind of enlightenment. I will resort to listening to my fave song "Amazing Day-Coldplay" as the song is forever the kind of religious song (my opinion) that reminds me of Him, while staring at His sky, smiling. He knows how much I love His sky and the creations behind it, which always make me ponder so much! =D
p/s: Gonna start with murottal class soon so I can recite AQ just like my favorite qori, Salim Bahanan. hehe..

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