I M Leaving My Past Behind And Won T Look Back

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2020 is about to come to an end and 2021 will be taking over the 365 days, soon enough. I've been reminiscing alot about myself lately and i just realized for the past six years i haven't been so good to myself. For everything that happened i tend to blame myself, hating myself for it and sometime i blame others too. I constantly stressing myself over something that i shouldn't. 


So I'm leaving my past behind and i won't look back in order for me to be the new me. Fullstop. No comma. I didn't mean to hurt anyone but i don't want to keep hurting myself either. You should know when someone leave or move on its usually after a long process of enduring the wrongs until they had enough. But don't get me wrong. I'm done with the "who's fault?" "blaming people" stuff. It is what it is now. Let us make a peace with the past. Forgive whatever it is. Having too many old memories makes it more difficult to make new memories so out with the old and in with the new. It ain't easy, I know. But they said..you ain't going anywhere by living in the past.


Although 2020 hasn't been a good year for me, it brings me to a new phase of my life and my whole world is about to change. At this point i have something that i need to protect and to take care of. Please pray for my happiness and i hope you will find your happiness too. InshaAllah.


Current mood : lookin forward 4 ma brand new life as a.. wtb. Ma friend said ma life is like a fairytale. Completely unexpected but it is the answer to my istikarah n i will embrace it. Doa baik-baik 😊😊

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